Making Choices

Decisions are hard. I don't know much about astrology, but I do know that I am a Libra and I live up to that supposedly indecisive trait. I am constantly weighing things out in my mind. At a restaurant, I'm usually the last one at the table to order food. If a waiter looks at me first, I'll ask that they go around the table the other way. Dessert is another story. Chocolate is the only answer. No questions there. All other aspects of life though require major thinking for me. Procrastinating is something I think I am quite good at. I realize that while I love my life, I have made some choices that have kept me from moving forward in some areas.

Three years ago, having already started a few programs at my children's school, and having taken on being room parent for every grade level my kids were in, I also then took on VP of the PTA. After a year of that, I stepped up to President, and then my co-President and I decided to do one victory lap together and here we are, three years later. I like what I've been doing, and love working with the team of people I get to work with, but it is very much time to move on. That position has taken so much of my time, and it has been at the cost of me making some big life decisions. I have put creative projects on hold, career changes on hold, and even just time for myself on hold.

There have been so many pieces I started writing, or project ideas that I began but never followed through on. There are so many things I would love to do, that I can't even decide where to start. I do know though, that I have to clean my slate a bit and with summer coming, I can do just that. I have amazing follow-through for others and their needs, but it is time for me to pick a goal for myself and see it all the way through. I've wanted to take tennis lessons for a few years now, or even try a new Pilates class. But I've been so busy with school stuff, that the dentist for my kids has been on the back burner for too long, booking flights and travel plans have been on hold, and a night out with my husband has happened, but way too infrequently lately.

For the past few years, I've said to myself that next week will be a bit easier. When this event is over, I will come up for air, or I will take some time for myself when... So without further ado, I am making a list of things I have put off. I will take a tennis lesson, I will take a nap. I will go out for dinner. I will write more. I will take my kids to the dentist, even though that is fun for no one. I will sit still more. First though, I just need to make it through the next few weeks.