Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Wait For It!

Standing together with my husband and kids, we were asked if we had any New Years resolutions for 2018. The first thing that came out of my mouth was, “Yes, to have patience." It was meant as a joke and as if on-cue, he laughed. My husband agreed that yes, patience would be nice, as he smirked. Whether it was poke at myself, my kids, or my career, well I am not entirely sure. I do know that following that question, I am realizing patience is, in fact, exactly what I want in the new year.

Reaching my 5 year old son has been challenging to put it lightly. He is having a difficult time adjusting to Kindergarten. He is whiney and seems unhappy a lot of the time, and I can't tell what part is him just being 5, and what part is me not having the right tools. I have screamed at him more than I want to admit. I have wanted to run away so that he would miss me and stop taking me for granted. I have thought about taking sugar, dairy and wheat out of his diet to calm him down. All fleeting, but happening in my head nonetheless. This too will pass, but the key ingredient to this volatile recipe is patience.

Everyone only has so much time in the day, and myself included. I make these lists everyday that I seem to rarely finish. At the end of the day, checking things off my list is not what brings me joy. I know not everything needs to a positive moving experience, but I don't have to be productive from morning to night. I've somehow forgotten how to relax, to slow down once in a while. When I start hearing myself ordering the kids to complete tasks, I need to be patient with myself and with them, and remember that the biggest missing piece for children in today's culture is downtime. We all need it.

As far as my career goes, I have so many irons in the fire. I love so many things and still haven't fully decided where I will direct my focus. I continue to love my work with senior fitness, I love writing and acting, as well. I will keep pursing these things while managing this home and raising a couple of youngins. Preferably with a bit more patience in 2018.

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